I do like to write, but free style writing. I know I’m capable to be a good writer, but feelings and emotions always take over me and then I just can’t write. I tempt to stop every minute and look at the screen to check for errors and correct them, after many years of doing it I now feel like a robot. In the middle of a paragraph I stop to think and wonder if my grammar is correct or if my writing even makes sense, in fact I’m doing it right now. I always loved to write letters to my friends and family because they wouldn’t check if the paragraph made sense or even if I had spelling errors, they would just look at the feelings and effort I put on it, but now I’m even afraid to think about a letter. In high school my teachers forced me and expected me to write a strong introduction before I started my essay, but its hard and almost impossible to have good ideas when you’re barely going to start a paper. For all essays I got a grade, having that letter weight on my shoulders wasn’t easy because I didn’t want to be the stupid writer from the class. I often forced myself to do well on essays because I wanted to keep my straight Ace G.P.A and it was like a goal I had set for myself. This summer when I talked to my High School classmates I found out that I was the only one with this type of class. I find that very interesting and in a way kind of sarcastic because I had the highest grade for my class and yet I’m the one taking remedial English class. I’m not saying that is bad but it just doesn’t make any sense that I’m not ready for a regular English class when my teacher from High School said I was, or was she lying to me? It makes me think that if I would have done badly in her class maybe I would have been ready for a college English course. Being a good writer doesn’t mean that you have to get it right the first time, being a good writer is about finding the way to express yourself and feel comfortable with what you wrote.